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PARI INTERVALLO IN TEMPERED GRAYS
October 2025, Paris
Pari Intervallo in Tempered Grays. October two thousand twenty-five. Sixty-two years old. One month before Soledad. Six months after Home. And I painted ME. Self-portrait. Most vulnerable. Most honest. ME immersed. Flooded cellar. Troubled blue-green water. Head just above surface. Mouth under water. And EASEL. Also immersed. With me. Drowned. Unusable. Paralyzed. And it’s ME the immersed one. Barsan. And easel my tool. Drowned together. Artist who can no longer create. Easel under water equals impossible to paint. Most vulnerable self-portrait ever. And musical reference. Arvo Pärt. Pari Intervallo for organ. Nineteen seventy-six two thousand eight. Rare notes spaced immense silences. Very slow tempo. Suspended time. Pari Intervallo equals at equal distance. Latin. Pärt silent eight years. Nineteen sixty-eight nineteen seventy-six. Creative spiritual crisis. Before renaissance Tintinnabuli style. Pictorial transposition. Organ breathes. Barsan breathes barely. Immense silences. Oppressive empty space. Mouth underwater. Forced silence. At equal distance. Head at water level. Precarious balance. Life death. Breathing drowning. Creation paralysis. Context. October two thousand twenty-five. One year exactly start Gaza massacre. October seventh two thousand twenty-four two thousand twenty-five. Trump nine months power. Summer two thousand twenty-five hottest ever. AI replaces human creators. Trajectory April October November. April Peint-Piano musical ecstasy harmony hope possible. October Pari Intervallo immersion drowning creative existential crisis forced silence. November Soledad Christ returned overwhelmed call transcendence recognition art limits. What happened between April October. World worsens. Gaza Trump climate AI. And personal crisis. Galleries still reject. Parisian solitude. Fatigue sixty-two years. Loss faith art as solution. April still believed art could save. October understands art alone not enough. World too heavy. November calls Christ. Need superior presence.
I remember October two thousand twenty-five precisely, and six months after Home March, bear logs, and April Peint-Piano still possible lightness Scriabin ecstasy, and now October, and descent, fall, and sensation drowning, metaphorical then literal tableau idea, and me immersed, and why this image, and multiple answer, world worsens, Gaza thirteen months war continues, daily horror, images dead children, and Trump returned, elected November two thousand twenty-four, and nine months power, chaos, and climate summer two thousand twenty-five records again, unbearable heat, and AI everywhere, replaces artists writers, and me painter, and question, art still relevant, and also personal, sixty-two years, fatigue, and galleries still reject, twenty-two years exile, recognition zero, and poverty, and solitude, and accumulation, and October breaking point, rupture point, and sensation drowning, submerged, water rises, difficult breathing, and easel with me, faithful tool, but unusable underwater, and creative paralysis, cannot paint anymore, world too heavy, art insufficient, and musical reference Arvo Pärt Pari Intervallo, Estonian composer, like me Eastern Europe, and his organ work, rare notes silences, and silence eight years crisis, and me also silence, or almost, painting becomes impossible, sensation that, October two thousand twenty-five, and need express that, drowning, and paradox, paint my own impossibility to paint, and last tableau before, or almost, because November Soledad will follow, call Christ, but October darkest moment, maximum descent, before spiritual rise November.
And October November diptych, Pari Intervallo and Soledad, inseparable, October personal drowning “I can no longer”, November spiritual cry for help “alone I cannot need superior presence”, and Barsan traverses his own silence Pärt’s eight years compressed few weeks, and Soledad his renaissance, his Tintinnabuli, stripped essential spiritual style after crisis, and October descent depth, November beginning rise, call Christ presence, and trajectory April October November reveals descent then call, Peint-Piano ecstasy → Pari Intervallo drowning → Soledad transcendence, and why this descent, multiple explanation, world objectively worsened, but also subjective, Barsan sixty-two years, accumulated fatigue, constant rejection, solitude, poverty, and questioning meaning, art for what, recognition never, posthumous perhaps like Van Gogh, but living zero, and October moment maximum doubt, and drowning metaphor that, submerged doubts, water rises, difficult breathing, and unusable easel, paralyzed creation, and yet tableau exists, paradox, paints impossibility to paint, and perhaps last effort, testify crisis, then silence, then November call other, Christ, transcendence, art alone not enough, spiritual need, and Pari Intervallo tipping moment, between art alone and art plus spirituality, between human alone and human calling divine, and October two thousand twenty-five pivot.
And pictorial facture, oil aluminum, medium impastos, visible brush strokes but not violent, controlled, meditative, and grays applied layers, transparencies, depth, and water painted troubled texture, surface reflections, and concrete walls textured, rough, and rust pipes, careful details, and Barsan’s face painted love pain, honest self-portrait, not flattered, tired features, dark circles, real, and easel also detailed, wood metal, familiar object, companion, and weak light creates soft shadows, not harsh contrasts, and heavy oppressive atmosphere, but calm also, resignation, waiting, and square format confinement, and viewer facing immersed Barsan, impossible avert confrontation, and Barsan’s gaze fixed, toward us, toward void, and palpable tableau silence, grays muffle, water muffles, and breathing theme, organ breathes, man breathes barely, and precarious life, and October two thousand twenty-five tableau finished signed dated, Pari Intervallo in Tempered Grays 2025, and hung studio, and immersed Barsan watches daily, and crisis testimony, and courage that, expose vulnerability, and also hope, because paints, therefore still there, resists, and faithful easel, and November will follow, Soledad, call Christ, and rise will begin, and October depth, but not end, transition, silence before renaissance, Pärt eight years then Tintinnabuli, Barsan October drowning then November transcendence, and forever October two thousand twenty-five, forever Pari Intervallo, forever immersed Barsan, forever drowned easel, forever flooded cellar, forever troubled blue-green water, forever head above mouth below, forever precarious breathing, forever at equal distance life death, forever creation paralysis, forever forced silence, forever tempered grays, forever quasi-monochrome, forever pictorial musical minimalism, forever Pärt reference, forever organ breathes man breathes, forever vulnerable honest self-portrait, forever artist tool solidary, forever Don Quixote Rocinante, forever silent heroism, forever minimal resistance, forever presence despite all, forever October descent depth, forever before Soledad, forever silence transition, forever Pari Intervallo.
